Jenn hallowes
I write to discover what I don't yet know about myself.
When my fingers meet the keyboard, I'm rarely certain where we'll end up.
The writing process isn't just documentation—it's excavation, uncovering layers of understanding I couldn't access through thought alone.
I've come to trust this archaeological dig into consciousness.
"Cause I wonder sometimes about the outcome of a still, verdictless life. Am I living it right?"
John Mayer's question has echoed through my years, propelling me into a perpetual dance between expansion and retreat, safety and risk, visibility and solitude.
My writing journey on Jenneral Thoughts has unfolded in chapters that mirror my geographic and psychological migrations.
In "Ohio to Oregon," I documented a failed attempt to fly the coop—finding that failure often contains more wisdom than success.
"Montana Musings A-Z" chronicled the collision between my comfort zone and the Montanan way, as I finally made the leap westward.
Now, "The Biology of Building" explores the parallel evolution of scientific discovery, business development, and personal transformation.
My work spans seemingly disparate domains—from the cellular biology of skincare to the psychological terrain of personal transformation.
Yet I've discovered a profound symmetry between them: both skin cells and human consciousness move between states of protection and regeneration.
Both require specific triggers to shift from closed resistance to open receptivity.
I've made Montana my temporary home—a place where nature's vastness has mirrored my internal explorations.
Here, isolated in a guesthouse through a long winter, I confronted the sharp edges of my own judgments and witnessed their slow, necessary softening.
My writing documents these parallel journeys: scientific research alongside personal evolution, business development alongside consciousness expansion.
I don't separate the professional from the personal because I've found the most meaningful insights emerge precisely at their intersection.
The Biology of Building series chronicles my journey (re)creating Proof Positive Skin Care—a business born from ten years of observing cellular patterns and the mathematical algorithm that finally quantified them.
But it equally chronicles my own movement from protection to regeneration states, from opposition to integration, from reaction to creation.
What compels me is the recognition that our external circumstances can change endlessly, but we will always experience only what our consciousness permits us to experience.
Posts
X: Xenacious: the art of chosen change
W: Wholeheartedly present: when blank pages speak
V: Vulnerable Communication Jack Harlow-style
U: breathing as the Universal exchange
T: Transurfing My Way Right Into (And Out Of) Being Stuck In The Snow
S: Sheila the Subaru takes Snow like a boss
R: the Resplendent sway of family love
Q: Query as self-reflection: love over location
P: nobody wants this Puny desire
K: the nature of Karma, and the Karma of nature
I: the Insidious architecture of fear
H: embracing the paradox of true Humility
G: Gratitude is a Bridge Built by Phil Collins
F: Flesh Out: Canvas to Creation
D: The Den-Sharing Dynasty: How Seventeen Cats Are Making Me More Human
C: Constellations, Constants, and Coldplay
B: Bears and Bud Light Seltzer
A: Disappointment AND Jubilation
Day 30: “I Don’t Paint Anymore”
Day 29: The Barometer of Curiosity
